December 19, 2006

• Time Sure Flies When You're Older

  This year was filled with a lot of changes.  With the exception of that incident and difficult month, it's been a  mostly great 2006.  I did a lot of travelling.  I made more time for myself. I made more time for my friends and family.  I think I started working so much because it really kept me busy. At that time in my life, that's all I wanted to do. Work and focus on it. Somewhere down the line, I had to take a break. Analyze my life and figure out if what I was doing was making me happy. This year...it became clear that I no longer need to work so much.....that i needed more free time again with friends and family. 

  I realized it's becoming more difficult to work nights. Cutting my hours to part-time was the best decision I made this year. Adding hours to my day time has been good, but I don't know if it's been great. What I really want to start focusing on next year (besides my continued goal of losing weight and being healthy) is to do more activities that could make a difference in other people's lives.  Working in the health field, you really do make a difference. But I need something different now.  I want to do more artistic stuff. Hands on thing.  I think next year, I want to decorate a float. I also think by next year, I'll be cutting my hours to per diem at Northridge. I'm very happy at Cedars right now....maybe down the line I won't be...but right now, I'm satisfied and content w/ the job. 

  The past two months have been very busy. Incredibly busy.  The great part about my job...I never have to take it home. Thank goodness. I don't know how people bring work home. 

  So I'm still talking to Italian guy...I don't know where this is going to go...if it's even going to go anywhere. We finally saw each other this past Thursday after a month of texts and phone calls. I like this one.  A lot.  A part of me is very hesitant to like him.  I've gone without a boyfriend for almost 10 years now and the "relationships" I've had along the way...well, always felt temporary.  I'm not saying that I see this long run...hardly the case since I still feel we have a lot of "getting to know each other" deal. But I can also say I don't see this being "temporary" (yet).  It's nice to take things slow...a bit frustrating sometimes....I mean, we haven't even held hands! But it's cute.  My friends laugh at me cuz they even ask how I give my hugs. My friend JB keeps telling me "ass in" when you're hugging someone you like. I never even knew there was a difference! I mean, I know there are differences in hugging, but I feel like I hug all my friends the same. I give good hugs....and if I didn't like the person or didn't know the person, I'd give a handshake (or a wave).  ANYWAY, I digress.  We're suppose to meet up (techinically, this being morning) tonight. Hopefully it'll go through. Last week didn't count. We were suppose to have a lunch date, but he had to cancel on me b/c his work meeting had to be rescheduled around lunch time....but his saving grace is that he wanted to make plans to see me that night. Of course I was very disappointed, so I told him to just call me (since I had plans that night --> baking party with the Bridal Party Crew aka BPC).  I didn't expect to see him, but he did end up calling. He got brownie points for stopping over my friend's pad and hanging out with me and a bunch of strangers. He also got brownie points for being so cute....

  Italian Boy (IB): I was wondering if you'd like to go for drinks
  Me:  I'd love to, but I'm with my friends right now. I'm not even home.
  IB: Where are  you?
  Me: I'm in Studio City...on blank street
  IB: I'm actually on that street. How many of you are there? I have room for 4.
  Me: I'm actually drinking right now, but you're welcome to hangout here (whispers to friend, "is it ok", friend nods yes)
  IB: Ok, I'll stop by as long as they don't mind.

  I thought it was cute that he was willing to take me and my friends out for drinks (I've never had a guy do that before...at least without planning). Then after hanging out w/ my friends for at least an hour, I walked him down to his car....then he insisted on driving me back (even if it was 1/2 a block up and he'd have to do a U-turn to drop me off...and another U-turn to go back on the freeway). In the car he said, "You look nice". He must've been drinking a lot (j/k)...but seriously, I don't know how he could say that. I was in sweats and no make-up! Totally not my cutest at all....but it was nice for him to say that.

  I hope I don't F this up though. I say this b/c part of me is soooo anxious. i want things to just move along...I met him in October. We've gone on 2.5 dates and each time, it's ended in a hug! I think we're both interested in each other and then just get really chicken. So last night, I texted him. I was suppose to call him back (but I had to go to sleep...and I was really tired..so i texted him that I was tired and didn't want to say anything silly like ask him to come over)...what was his response? Nothing.  I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing.  I didn't expect to hear from him today since we had no plans and he knows I work my day job and night job Mondays-Wednesdays....he does know I'm off tonight though...

  So I'll see tonight if we'll meet up..and if not..then I guess I'll know. 

  I went online today to check out my credit card bills...ouch. I spent a lot this season. Not as much as some, but a lot. A lot on me! This year I finally bought things I've been prohibiting myself to buy for me. Black Friday (day after Thanksgiving), I finally bought the portable DVD I've been wanting to buy for the past 3 years now.  I also bought some gifts and several boots the next day. I actually splurged on me....but now I gotta cut down on the spending so I can afford next month.

  So I'm still keeping my options open. As my friend told me, "don't lay all your eggs in a basket". But it seems like I haven't been wanting to go out either. I think part of it has to do with me being hella tired. I am exhausted. Every free day is filled with some sort of event...and if I have no plans, I'm tagging along w/ Ivy to do her errands. But I plan on asking for some time off either in January or February....just to stay home and do nothing! Having two days off is cool (but it does no justice when it's not two consecutive days off). 

  This year I'm not sending any x-mas cards...b/c I have no time this year. I do plan on emailing those that have taken the effort to send me a card though.

  Anyway, I hope y'all are doing well....I can't believe next week is x-mas! I really can't believe that this month is almost over. What have I been doing?? What have you been doing?

  • 4:12 am
  • 2 Comments