January 4, 2007

• OVERBOOKING

  I am so guilty of always making more than one plan on a given day. The first word that escapes my mouth is usually "yes". So when I made plans to meet up with a girlfriend this Thursday, I had every intention on not making any other plans. But what happens?? Nevermind that I worked Tuesday day, Tuesday night, Wednesday day and Wednesday night....but now have plans to have breakfast with a guy friend of mine, my girlfriend in Harbor City during the day, my friends for dinner in Hollywood...then head out to a gig. Chris Pierce, he went to SC during my time, is performing in Hollywood tonight w/ Ryan Perkins. A full band show and it's awesome that he's in LA right now performing...he's usually touring. He performed for my sorority's SCN back in the day and he (along with Terry) are awesome performers!! Check him out on myspace if you have the chance (you can even listen to him).

  So...with all the above?? Why do I even consider trying to go to work? My boss asked me if I can come in for a few hours, but as you can see, there's no way I will have the time to come in. I really wanted to come in and do a few hours cuz it would mean some overtime for me...but I am booked.

  And...with all that going on, when do I sleep? It's no wonder my freakin' body is so whacked up. I am tired! I know I will have to give up my night job eventually. It's really taking it's toll, but it's hard to say "no more" when it's paying for "fun" bills and my retirement...and my health benefits. 

  I think 2007 will be a great year for me, but why am I feeling so??? blah. I know..it's b/c I'm overdoing myself with committing too much. But seriously, I'd be so bored and wouldn't know what I'd do with myself if I didn't have commitments. What I really need though is less "social" commitments and more "giving back to the community" commitments. I'm still not eating more vegetables (that was my new year's resolution y'all)....but it does have to do with the fact that I haven't gone grocery shopping in a month and I haven't had the time. Plus I'm trying to finish all the food in my fridge/freezer as well...and my cupboards. So it'll be awhile when I actually go grocery shopping. I do have some eggplants I'd like to cook by this weekend.

  I was going to go Mr. G's place this weekend. I wanted company and wanted to cook for someone as well. But he has a wedding to attend on Saturday...and I'm not going to drive all that way just to hang out for a few hours...so it'll be another time. Overall I'm doing pretty well. I will admit that I'm really bummed about Italian guy. I just don't get it. All of a sudden, lack of communication...not a peep from him. But as I say, if you don't put the effort, I won't put the effort as well. I think I've done enough on my side to let him know I'm interested.....and now that he's been so MIA, I've had a lot of time to think. Ask myself, do we really have anything in common? Maybe we are just way too different people and it wouldn't work to begin with. I'm the social, love to hang with friends and family type...and he's the serious, work comes first type. Do I really want to even date someone who puts work first all the time?  Ambition is great, but I've never heard anyone say "I wish I worked more"....but I've heard plenty say "I wish I spent more time with my family". 

  For those who were wondering...I stopped talking to British guy b/c I realized all he wanted was to get into my pants...and the only time I called him was when I was buzzing...and we never even met after our first "meeting at the bar" way back in August....so yeah...it was just amusment for awhile.

  Chicago guy and I talk from time to time. He is really nice, but I don't think I'm interested in him in that way. He's still trying to establish himself....and me, I already know I want more than that in a man.  Afterall, i am old! hahaha.

  I'm not motivated to lose weight right now. Not motivated to workout. Not motivated to do anything. If only I was not motivated to eat! LOL. Actually, I was bad today. I didn't bring lunch, I didn't want to spend money...so I kinda just ate what was in the office....a cup of miso soup and oranges. But I did eat some of the leftover candies from last year! I hate having such a sweet tooth and a weakness for chocolate. So crazy that I am like this! But then again, you are talking about the girl who had rotten teeth in the island...seriously, my teeth was bad cuz all I ate was candy. I didn't like eating anything else. It was always a struggle for my grandmother to get me to eat something. I was seriously malnourished when I was little. 

  Speaking of malnourished, I was telling my friend Tad about my girlfriends who went to Vietnam and had a photo session. If you ever see my girlfriends, they are hella skinny. Not bone gross skinny, but skinny. So they were saying that in Vietnam, they were called "fat"...and i told them that in Thailand, you also get that too. Here, I'd be considered a few extra pounds...in Thailand, I was fat next to the skinny skinny girls. So my friend Tad (who's from Thailand) said...it's not that they are skinny, it's because they are malnourished. I never thought of it that way. But I can see what he means.

  Well..my thoughts are all over the place tonight...time to get some zzzz's in before my long day of activities today.

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