January 23, 2007

• Another week...

  I'm thinking about asking my boss (@ my night job) for some time off in February. I am drained.  I've cut my hours but I still find myself wondering why am I doing this? I so don't want to be working nights any longer. But she went to so much trouble to make sure I get full benefits working part time.  So I feel like I should at least do one more year before I put in my two weeks resignation...and ask to go per diem...or something.

  I ended up not seeing K on Saturday. Long story, but it was a realtiy check I needed.  Oddly, i got this call from this guy I met during my b-day dinner in Westwood last year...I haven't heard from him in so long...and out of nowhere, he calls me. I already know it's doomed. First, he's a smoker...and I seriously don't date anyone who smokes beyond the occasional social scene. Personally, I want my guy to live as long as I do.  Secondly, I don't think he can provide the lifestyle that I want. Okay, so I sound a tiny bit materialistic, but I'm being honest. Those days where making ends meet....working for what one truly loves even if it pays very little...though "romantic", isn't what I want in my future. I want to grow old and live comfortably. I don't want to scrouge for change just to pay for dinner.

  Didn't hear from bartendar for a week and I was going to scratch him off the list, but turns out he's been really sick.  I still don't know about this one. He seems nice. He has potential...just don't know if it'll go anywhere...if he can make the ball roll....that's why I want to talk to him and see.  That was the appealing part about Italian, he had the ball rolling for him....I have a feeling I will eventually hear from him again though...don't they always call...

  Speaking of call, people still call me knowing that I work 2 shifts Mon-wed....and I need to sleep. Of course today I get the most irritating phone call from a guy I use to date. I haven't talked to this fool in months..almost a year (me thinks)...and he calls me out of the lbue....and i'm like "i'm going back to sleep...no I don't want to see you"....lol.

  the only person I do plan to see is Mr. C. He'll be coming home from Iraq for a few weeks. So it'll be nice to see an old friend.  He says it's been hard there...I can imagine. I'm just glad he's okay so far....It's going to be weird seeing him since it's been almost 2 years (at least it feels like that to me) since I last saw him.

  As for K....only time will tell. I had written a letter but opted not to send. I don't see a point to send anything. I don't think I need to explain anything....if he can't figure it out..then it wasn't worth explaining...especially if he doesn't care to ask.

   

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