another work day...or night...or whatever you want to call it.

i was finally getting some zzzz in here at work then the phone rang...and now i'm up. i haven't made much progress since my last entry. i re-ordered the futon, but now waiting for the delivery. i bought the sourveniers for the bachelor party, but i haven't done anything on it yet. i was going to do a lot of it this Thursday, but my boss asked me to come in for 4 hours in the afternoon. I had plans...but I could do it later (i told myself). i did do my flash cards for school, now it's just finding time to go over them.

i had a chat w/ parisian...and from my understand, this summer will probably be the last time i will see him. although he is willing to move, he wants a place like paris...basically, where people speak french. i already know that I can't permanently move to Paris. i like visiting it and the thought of it as a vacations spot is nice, but i don't see myself moving there. but such is life....i am just going to enjoy the summer for what it is.

i'm quite surprised with this attitude i have. it's kinda nice...not having to worry or think things over and over and over. maybe it's because i have so many things happening that i just don't have time to really stay on one subject for too long...

so....is wearing black to a wedding okay? especially during the summer? if i had money,  i'd so get a cook and a stylist...i will so need those two...and a maid (hahaha)...and a fitness trainer....yeah, i'd like that alot! but i don't...so i'm kinda in the dark with dressing myself. i'm one of those fools that don't really know how to layer. quite honestly, i don't have time to care! lol. i wish i had a body type where whatever i wear looks good! i'm in the camoulflage mode right now! hide every inch of me! lol.

okay..i'm hella tired cuz i'm writing nonsense....LOL. going to try to get some zzzzz...

So much is going on around me....I'm trying to stop and take it all in, but I feel times' pressure pushing me. Next thing I know it's another day. Another day of work. Of school. Another night job. Another short weekend. Another "i have to do this", but when the day comes "I'm so damn tired" approaches instead. Pushing me further and further from what I have to do.

I accomplish a few, but I go backwards so quickly. So it seems.

6 weddings! 5 in two months! WTF!! i'm wedding-out and i haven't even gone to one. but i have to buy gifts. I'm in charge of one. I have to make the souveniers...I have to make reservations. I have to save money. I have to...have to...have to...do everything. Where the heck do I find the time to get the gifts? where the heck do I find the time for me?

I want to buy a house. My cousin is going to buy a house with her sister. I wish I had a sister sometimes. But what happens when her sister is engaged? What happens then? But I want my own place....I don't want a roommate...I want guests. i want privacy...i want to be with family.

I need to buy my ticket to Paris. But I keep forgetting the credit card....i need to buy a futon b/c the one I ordered didn't make it...instead of automatic refund or exchange, I have to go to the store to handle it in person...what is this all about?

I have homework. i have to make flash cards, but I don't have time. I have to see the doctor this week...I have to pay for my car registration too....i want some salad...should i get nutrisystem?

I'm looking online....my coworker is gone. it's sad...what happened? what happened? why is the other so fake? Why is she two face? why is the two face....well...the other two face is pregnant....what?? ugh....why?

My thoughts are going going going...I like him, but he's far....i like him, but he's not attentive. The other one makes me smile...the other one is easy to talk to.

I hope to find a conclusion. A sound mind. A sitting area to stand on.....I hope to accomplish it all...let go of the ones that don't matter...take care of the things that do.