February 23, 2005

• So I called out sick last night for Northridge. It was a freakin' busy Monday at Cedars. I got scheduled to come in a 1/2 hour late. Which didn't matter much cuz there was no traffic due to the holiday season. I ended up doing a quick shopping spree at Ralphs. Bought some coffee, creamer and pound cake to share with my coworkers. Then headed to work....and kept working til 430pm. It was the first time in years where I seriously had to keep shaking my hands from cramping. I'm currently working on this database project for Cedars...hopefully it'll impress the big wigs there and I'll get a nice raise (hopefully).

  
  

  I had every intention to head out to work, but I so needed some TLC. At 7pm the boy calls and ask if I can hang out with him for the night....yeah, call me a bad worker bee, but it was so worth it. We actually spent some quality time....usually, I end up sitting in the living room watching tv while he does his "errands" around the house. Last night was different though. He spent a few minutes doing stuff around the house, then he sat next to me watching news, CSI, and Growing up Gotti (in-between commercials). It's a weird feeling knowing that I do care about this boy...want him to be happy and know he'll always be a friend...but also finally knowing I don't love him that way anymore. I just like the company and that's that.  IT'S SCARY cuz sometimes I fear I'll never let myself get emotionally vulnerable like the way I was with him. I JUST CAN'T SEE MYSELF IN THAT POSITION.

  
  

  So he went to work and gave me the house keys (cuz he changed his doors where you need a key to lock the doors from the outside and nothing in the inside can automatically lock it) and instructed me where to put the key once I leave. Cute huh?

  
  

  I finally got up at 8am, fixed his bed...threw the trash (cuz i had food in it and didn't know when he'd be back home) and headed out to my parents.

  
  

  The traffic was brutal! Road construction on a rainy day is NOT a good idea, but with all the potholes created from the rain, I guess it is necessary. So I went to look at a house in Monrovia. 2 bedroom, 1 bath home. Cute...really really small house, but it has potential..and if it's just for me, it's a really good size.  A lot to fix though...it does have that "old' smell, but that's fixable. Underneath the gross carpet is the original hardwood floors, so I can actually get that fixed first. Then, remove the carpet in the bedroom. The washer and dryer is right next to the 50s style kitchen (seriously...it's an old looking kitchen) but like I said, doable. I definitely would need to get tiles in the kitchen and bathroom....AND...a new roof...overall, I liked it. There's a nice backyard (and patio area). I can actually add a jacuzzi in the long run. There's no "master bedroom" though...I might have to tear down a wall but we'll see....all in due time.

  
  

  Okie dokes, I have to get back to work. I'll let you know if I end up bidding on that house. I know I should keep looking around though.

  
  

   

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