September 19, 2005
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Just when I thought it'd be easy sailing....I'm stressed out.
Next week, we have JACHO coming to Cedars...not too worried about that...more worried that I have other things on my mind that might make me go "ugh" in the middle of reviews.
Stressed out cuz I'm juggling money everywhere....changing due dates around cuz my due dates ARE NOT corresponding with pay day!!
On my way to work today, I wondered if it was all worth it. What I'm doing now...all this sacrifice..is it all worth it? Is it worth putting that money aside? Is it worth working mad hours? Is it worth it?? And am I missing out on something b/c I'm so occupied with work or too tired to go out! I haven't even been watching my food intake the last 2 weeks cuz I'm just....not together right now.
I'm in one of those moods....
I'm feeling bitter....ever feel like u work so hard...and u have nothing to show for? I mean..yeah, u live on ur own, u have ur own car, ur independent..but i mean...sometimes i feel like I haven't accomplished anything yet! Where's my dream car? Where's my house? Where's the travelling? The partner? The kids (well...I don't really care for kids...but sometimes I just think that). At least I'm getting some travelling in, but I'm not getting enough in...I don't have my weekends off...I don't have any day off without sacrificing hours/money/time off....
If u were rich, do you think life would be easier? Or do u just have different bullshit to figure out? I tend to think it would be hella easier!
Maybe I'm moody b/c I don't feel 100% right now. I'm tired...feel sick...feel sleepy...so maybe i'm cranky...which is probably a good reason to stop writing now.....last thing I need to be is this way.
On a tangent...any authors u can recommend? I finished all Dan Brown's books...I didn't know I loved mystery/adventure books so much....
aight..gonna take a nap here at work. Til next entry...I mean..I should be happy soon...in 2 more weeks..I go on my cruise.....but i won't do the countdown..not yet. oh yeah, where's my digital camera? laptop? ugh!! nuff of this 
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hehe...don't stress too much...it's really not worth it...
rich people have their problems too, ya know...
oh.. vacation.. yeah. that is what you need!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =o)
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