Since I got the DVD portable case, I decided to use it tonight. Watched "thank you for smoking"...awesome movie. But b/c of this movie watching event, I didn't get a decent nap/sleep last night at work....and now I'm here at my day job...just "suffering' a little. 

My face is peeling. Not sure if it's b/c of the facial products I have that's drying it out. But I am taking my vitamins ...so hopefuly that'll help somehow. 

Nothing much going on here. My friend, Deb, is trying to match me up with her friend. Happa guy...so we'll see if there's any 'sparks'...but from experience, I usually have bad luck with that.  Who am I kidding? I have bad luck with guys in general.  I think Italian boy has proven me right.....I mean, here I thought I was "dating" someone that's going places, nice, etc. etc....but maybe the part of me that doesn't deal with "intimacy" very well knew it wouldn't work somehow...so that's why I liked him? I dunno....I'm not making much sense due to lack of sleep...

gotta go...have to sign a patient in....consents and all....

So with all the plans yesterday...I did two of the 3. The girlfriend cancelled (while I was en route) since she had to leave a certain time and I was running a bit late. But everything else happened......I drank a little too much last night. So certain boy was going to be there....and friend made comment to her fiance...and her fiance made comment to boy...so boy did not come. I was like "why did you do that?" since i had no problems with boy coming, but it was a good thing b/c boy and i would've been hella drunk and maybe to flirty...and we're trying to avoid that. 

The show was awesome! Met a guy "A"...he is so cute, but I was shy and he was way too young...and I dunno...I was shy...and drunk...and also saw my cute doctor there on a date....he's so cute!! I crush him, but he was on a date..and my coworker crush him so it's not like I would have any chance anyway...and the peeps left early to go to Burgundy room (and we left him behind)...then left to go to Velvet...then went to s4 and partied it up there...until i crashed on the couch. Friend's bro was so out of control....totally kidding around w/ me, but he was out of control...hugging me and making comments about my...endowedness....it was funny, but really weird b/c well...he's my friend's bro...and i'd be weirded out if my bro was flirting with my friends (even if he was "kidding")...and freak dancing me.

And....and...being the drunk girl that I was, I text Italian guy "am I correct to think that you no longer want to talk to me"...afterall, I haven't heard from him....not even a "happy new year wish" or an email, or a text....so what's a girl to think...and this morning I get "I do want to talk to you, I'm just busy".

So how does one respond to that? ...I responded with "ok". What else could I say?

Then I thought, omg, I spent the New Year stag....the only one in an all "couples" party...does this mean I'm going to be stag this year? Well, at least I'm consistent! lol.  What is it with me?? I always get, you're a great girl, she's so nice...I know I'm smart. I have my sh*t together, I'm cute....yet I'm having the most difficult time  finding someone to share my life with. What's that all about? Am I too picky? Maybe I'm just not cute in LA standards...who knows....ok, I don't believe that. I have no problems meeting guys...just can't find the one that wants to date seriously. hmmmmm

I am so guilty of always making more than one plan on a given day. The first word that escapes my mouth is usually "yes". So when I made plans to meet up with a girlfriend this Thursday, I had every intention on not making any other plans. But what happens?? Nevermind that I worked Tuesday day, Tuesday night, Wednesday day and Wednesday night....but now have plans to have breakfast with a guy friend of mine, my girlfriend in Harbor City during the day, my friends for dinner in Hollywood...then head out to a gig. Chris Pierce, he went to SC during my time, is performing in Hollywood tonight w/ Ryan Perkins. A full band show and it's awesome that he's in LA right now performing...he's usually touring. He performed for my sorority's SCN back in the day and he (along with Terry) are awesome performers!! Check him out on myspace if you have the chance (you can even listen to him).

So...with all the above?? Why do I even consider trying to go to work? My boss asked me if I can come in for a few hours, but as you can see, there's no way I will have the time to come in. I really wanted to come in and do a few hours cuz it would mean some overtime for me...but I am booked.

And...with all that going on, when do I sleep? It's no wonder my freakin' body is so whacked up. I am tired! I know I will have to give up my night job eventually. It's really taking it's toll, but it's hard to say "no more" when it's paying for "fun" bills and my retirement...and my health benefits. 

I think 2007 will be a great year for me, but why am I feeling so??? blah. I know..it's b/c I'm overdoing myself with committing too much. But seriously, I'd be so bored and wouldn't know what I'd do with myself if I didn't have commitments. What I really need though is less "social" commitments and more "giving back to the community" commitments. I'm still not eating more vegetables (that was my new year's resolution y'all)....but it does have to do with the fact that I haven't gone grocery shopping in a month and I haven't had the time. Plus I'm trying to finish all the food in my fridge/freezer as well...and my cupboards. So it'll be awhile when I actually go grocery shopping. I do have some eggplants I'd like to cook by this weekend.

I was going to go Mr. G's place this weekend. I wanted company and wanted to cook for someone as well. But he has a wedding to attend on Saturday...and I'm not going to drive all that way just to hang out for a few hours...so it'll be another time. Overall I'm doing pretty well. I will admit that I'm really bummed about Italian guy. I just don't get it. All of a sudden, lack of communication...not a peep from him. But as I say, if you don't put the effort, I won't put the effort as well. I think I've done enough on my side to let him know I'm interested.....and now that he's been so MIA, I've had a lot of time to think. Ask myself, do we really have anything in common? Maybe we are just way too different people and it wouldn't work to begin with. I'm the social, love to hang with friends and family type...and he's the serious, work comes first type. Do I really want to even date someone who puts work first all the time?  Ambition is great, but I've never heard anyone say "I wish I worked more"....but I've heard plenty say "I wish I spent more time with my family". 

For those who were wondering...I stopped talking to British guy b/c I realized all he wanted was to get into my pants...and the only time I called him was when I was buzzing...and we never even met after our first "meeting at the bar" way back in August....so yeah...it was just amusment for awhile.

Chicago guy and I talk from time to time. He is really nice, but I don't think I'm interested in him in that way. He's still trying to establish himself....and me, I already know I want more than that in a man.  Afterall, i am old! hahaha.

I'm not motivated to lose weight right now. Not motivated to workout. Not motivated to do anything. If only I was not motivated to eat! LOL. Actually, I was bad today. I didn't bring lunch, I didn't want to spend money...so I kinda just ate what was in the office....a cup of miso soup and oranges. But I did eat some of the leftover candies from last year! I hate having such a sweet tooth and a weakness for chocolate. So crazy that I am like this! But then again, you are talking about the girl who had rotten teeth in the island...seriously, my teeth was bad cuz all I ate was candy. I didn't like eating anything else. It was always a struggle for my grandmother to get me to eat something. I was seriously malnourished when I was little. 

Speaking of malnourished, I was telling my friend Tad about my girlfriends who went to Vietnam and had a photo session. If you ever see my girlfriends, they are hella skinny. Not bone gross skinny, but skinny. So they were saying that in Vietnam, they were called "fat"...and i told them that in Thailand, you also get that too. Here, I'd be considered a few extra pounds...in Thailand, I was fat next to the skinny skinny girls. So my friend Tad (who's from Thailand) said...it's not that they are skinny, it's because they are malnourished. I never thought of it that way. But I can see what he means.

Well..my thoughts are all over the place tonight...time to get some zzzz's in before my long day of activities today.

Even though I had a few days off from work, I still feel like i need rest. I spent most of my time driving all over the place and hanging out with friends and family that I really didn't get much of a break.  After x-mas, i spent the 26th with High School friends in Olvera Street.  Later that night, went to a birthday BBQ. The next day I went to work (both day and night). Thursday...I was suppose to spend some time with Italian guy, but I wasn't feeling so great and we both basically cancelled (which I think sums up our "situation").  I drove to my parents Thursday night and spent Friday celebrating my brother's birthday.  We didn't really start until later afternoon. I was in a very pissy mood b/c the "older brother" (i'm the oldest, so basically...he's the middle child) didn't make the time to hang out w/ the family.  It's so disappointing and there's nothing more I will say to this. My youngest brother wanted to go to BJ's for Pizza...so I took the fam out for that.  I kinda spoiled him this time cuz he turned 21 and if you've ever had a birthday between x-mas and new year's, you're pretty screwed....he was very screwed. Never had a birthday party (unless you count 1st birthday) and even now...we didn't throw one for him. So I decided to make it special for him.  He spent Friday night w/ his friends.

Saturday morning, I hung out w/ some college friends/sorority sisters. We've been doing this annually for the past 5 years now and it's always nice. We opted not to do a gift exchange since some had a mortgage and babies to take care of.  Personally, I don't really care for gifts, i like the fact that we spend time together. We caught up on the year's work and had a good brunch.  I went home and waited...and waited for my brother to get ready. He was going to spend the night at my pad since we were going to celebrate with his other cousin in Hollywood. I took him, our cousin and cousin's girlfriend to dinner at Boss Sushi. Then headed out to the bars in Hollywood. My brother, as I expected, would love Star Shoes. I was hoping that the Room would be open, but they are still renovating. I can't wait when they finally open. Then we headed out to see Cinespace (i believe it's now called a new club, but i never can keep up) but the price was too steep for the guys. We checked out Basque but definitely way older crowd and empty. So we headed back to Starshoes for some dancing...then headed out again to see what was around. We were going to go to Big Wangs, but opted to go to Tokio instead since the music was bumpin'. But it stinks in there! It was soooo odd to see a club full of smoke. Since it's illegal to smoke indoors in restuarants, clubs and bars here in Cali....it was a bit frustrating. Don't get me wrong, I do smoke socially (especially when drinking), but I don't like having my clothes smell of it and it's hard to breath.  That's why I'm not sooo keen to Vegas casinos nowadays.   Anywho, so many random people there....one very aggressive guy that I so was not into....and one cute guy but it's hard to "flirt" when little brother is there.  We then went to eat tofu since the boy was pretty drunk. For my bro's b-day, I spent close to $300 (food & drinks for 3 days worth). Got home at 4am...and woke him up (and roommate as well) to go to Dimsum with some friends of mine (which wasn't planned until that morning when they called).

Spent Sunday having dimsum in China Town. My friend manages several apartments so we went to see some of them. Then we went to Pinkberry's for some ice cream...it was so yum. Then dropped off the bro...slept for an hour...and headed to work at Cedars. Stayed a little late since there were plenty of admissions from the weekend. Got home and got ready. Went to pick up our cousin in Reseda and then went to meet up with the family (immediate and extended) to Northridge. So much food...and good food...my favorite foods were there, but I couldn't stay long to really enjoy the oysters and the dumpling soup and the mickey. It was cool though b/c most of my first degree cousins were there. I really wanted to take a pic with the girls, but I still don't have a camera.....

So by 9:30pm, I left the family party and drove to Pasadena to hang out with Geoff and Cheryl.  I couldn't eat the scrumptious food there...salad, pulled pork, steak, made from scratch pasta...such great food....but it was still nice --> even though i was the only stagg person there. So New Year's was cool...

I have this belief that what you do during the New Year will determine your year. For example, the year my car was hit by a drunk driver..and it was a hit and run. I spent my first day shelling out lots of money...so that pretty much summed up my year. i spent a lot of money throughout the year on unneccesary expenses, but that's what happened. Or the year I spent it with a certain person...and that was what I was doing that year...or the year I was fighting with the boy..that's what I was doing for the year....or the year that I spent with family...that's what i was doing for the year. So this year, I spent it with family and friends....the only thing is....a certain person at the party gave me a kiss on the lips....and it was really awkward. I hope this doesn't determine what I'll be doing for the year!! Also, I should just workout one of these years and maybe that's what I'll be doing for the year! hahaha.

Who knows what 2007 will bring. I just hope it's a good one.

So for Italian guy, did not hear from him....so I deleted his # and it's a good thing it wasn't more than just 2.5 dates cuz i think I could've really fallen for this one...oh well, more men out there to meet anyway.   I'm not starting off the New Year in the workout mode...I usually do, but this time around, I'm like...whatever....maybe this is going to be the year where I don't really care what happens and just go with the flow since it seems to be my motto lately. hee...

Ok...gotta get back to work. I hope you have a great 2007!

So Christmas came and went. We did something a little different this year. We celebrated on the 24th instead of the 25th.  It was kinda nice since I spent the 25th with my parents. I had Tuesday off as well and spent the 26th with HS friends for lunch and another set of HS friends for a birthday celebration dinner. Tomorrow I might see Italian guy, but we'll see (not going to get my hopes up)...and I might see Cheryl and Shauna...but I dunno. I've been off for a few days, but I haven't been able to enjoy my place. So I kinda just want to be lazy tomorrow and chill at the pad. I'm celebrating my bros birthday on Friday. Then having breakfast with some college friends/sisters on Saturday....then celebrating my brother's birthday again. He's turning 21! I can't believe it.  I feel hella old now. (heehee).

My other bro, the nurse, outdid himself this year with my gift (I got a Dooney and Burke wristlet to match my purse). I bought my entire family (plus my bro's girlfriend) tickets to Wicked. It's playing at Pantages until end of September. Of course, after the pre-sale to American Express card holders and two weeks to general public, I was able to buy 6 tickets for the first week of September! I couldn't believe it!!! But at least it'll be with my family and we'll have a good time.  I just have to find a place to have dinner in the area. 

So I come home after my day job today and looked in the mail. I get a card from firefighter. This is the first card I've ever gotten from him and I was so touched. Sometimes he surprises the crap out of me.  To know what we've gone through...all the BS...the hurt, the love, everything....I am surprised that we are still friends. Still there for each other....I am glad we are still in each other's life and we're at a healthier situation now. No longer in love, just friends...and it works that way.

Spending the 31st with family first (celebrating my cousin's birthday) then heading to South Pasadena to celebrate the New Year with friends....sleep over and see the rose parade the next day live!! or at least look at some of the floats. 

The weather hasn't been as cold as I anticipated. But I'm sure January and February will bring in the cold weather.  The only travel plans I have next year are small trips to Vegas (to celebrate Nicole's 30th birthday), San Diego (eventually do my summer kayaking), New York (for my birthday), Colorado (to see my cousin and maybe invest) and Michigan (to see some friends)....I really have to start saving for a trip to Philippines though.

Well...it's pretty quiet tonight. I hope it remains that way. But I usually get calls between 2am to 4am. Never use to, but it's been that way lately. One of the kids I set up an outpatient appointment for had to be hospitalized inpatient b/c he was hearing voices. It must be such a difficult time for the child and the parents. I mean, I'm sure we hear our own voices tell us what to do, etc...our inner thoughts...but to actually hear voices (other people's voices) telling you to hurt yourself or others and at such an early age, heartbreaking. There's no cure for that except a lifetime of medication management.

I wasn't suppose to work tonight, but my coworker called me last minute yesterday....(after I've been asking him to cover for me on the 25th...since November!!)...I wasn't going to do it, but since I have to work at Cedars later on (Sunday from 7am to 12pm)...I figured might as well. At least he'll now trade tonight for my Monday...which means I have Monday and Tuesday off!! Yay!!!

I'm not really done shopping. I wanted to get a certain friend a gift...but so far, i'm not sure if he'll like what I got him...he's difficult to shop for. This is going to be short....I just wanted to wish anyone reading my blog a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

So we didn't meet up for dinner after all.  But it's ok. I was totally freakin' out...my guy friends were right..."stop over analyzing!"....turns out he worked Monday night, Tuesday during the day and when he finally returned my call @ 7pm Tuesday night, he was actually going to another job.  He said he'd try to meet with me Wed night for dinner but (as you can see) I'm here...at work.  I texted him back it was okay that I was just glad he called (cuz honestly, it wasn't like him to leave me hanging for so long, but he did call...so that's a good thing) and to know he got home okay that Monday morning after the catering job was a relief.

ANYWAY...to my topic.  Our country, the good 'ole US of A puts such an emphasis on recycling. YET, where are the recycling bins? I remember in the late 80's early 90's there was this whole emphasis on recycling...now?? Where are the ads? Why is there so much trash on the freakin' freeway (yes, I know it's b/c of the open trucks and lazy asses who don't get fined for messing up our highways).  Don't get me wrong, I'm not a big environment girl, but there's so many things wrong with our way of thinking sometimes. 

Yes, we have better "environmentally" safe fuels. But how big of a difference is it when 3rd world countries (and there's a lot more 3rd world countries than there are rich nations) can only afford diesel? Really, is there an imaginary line that says "pollution stops at this territory"?? Why did So Cal vote no on finding alternative ways for fuel and increase in building windmills? It's winter time, why is it that here in "sunny" Cali, our temperatures are in the low 40s and low 60s...while in the East Coast, they're wearing shorts? Peeps, we're f'ing up our environment...and the truth is, we need to do a better job....and the job doesn't stop in the good 'ole USA.

We are so lucky that sometimes we don't realize that in other parts of the world, one has to pay for education starting from Pre-School and up....that with poverty, comes illness, higher pollution, no money for medication.  I am guilty of wanting the good life. The truth is...who doesn't want the good life?  But have we become too focus on wanting the most current technology at the expense of our environment? Our health...our lives? 

As fast as technology is moving, why isn't there easy pickup for our junk? Or should I say, equipment that still works and probably in good condition, but no longer want it...and quite honestly, easier to throw in the trash than find that damn number (heck, I don't even know the number, but i do know you can look it up online) to call for them to pick up an old fridge, television, computer monitor, etc.  The thing is, it's not easy. Doesn't it make more sense to drop off old TV's, monitors, etc places that actually sell them? Like, used oil you can drop off at some car store (for the most part).  Nowadays, it's cheaper to buy a new television than to get it fixed...or buy a new computer than pay to get it fixed...why is that? 

We're so busy wanting it all..at what expense? Here in LA, most of my friends have 2 jobs...b/c the cost of living here has become ridiculous. Rent's gone up, one can't buy a house on a single income unless you're making bank, gas prices are up, cheap ass clothing like Forever 21 is no longer cheap (yet the labor and material was definitely cheaper than what you're wearing)...and if you bought a house, you're either working your ass off to live in it (or making bank)...basically everythings gone up but our salary...so what do people do? Work their asses off so they can take that standard 2 week vacation (if they're lucky to get that much) from work to travel not so far.  Sadly, it's an educational experience to travel to other countries.  Yet majority of Americans have never ventured past their state (in some cases, their childhood town).  It's no wonder majority of Americans can't relate/understand to what's going on outside the USA. We are so lucky to have it so easy here...yet we have high school drop outs who complain about their lives. All i want to say to that...go to a 3rd world and try complaining there...you'll be like Tyra Banks crying to obese women on how difficult it was for a day to try on the fat suit! c'mon!!

All I'm saying is, we got to do better....and that "we" includes me.  I am just as guilty. This past year, I put the effort to take things I no longer wanted but was still in good use to Goodwill.  I'm giving my television to a friend (I was going to give it to goodwill) that needed to replace her very old television cuz I got Geoff's and Cheryl's old TV. I started making one of our trash the designated recycling trash bin.  My problem right now, I don't know what to do with the vacuum that's no longer working and definitely not donate-able....so who do I call and how do I know they won't just throw it in a landfill that will be filled at some time and have houses built there later on in which our future generation will run on top of the polluted dirt (just like Montebello)?

Why are more people dying of cancer? Heart disease, I can easily answer that...no one has to walk too far any longer...our kids stay infront of the television or computer instead of running around outdoors...but the world has also become a scarier place. Can you really trust your neighbors? I went online to check out the sex offenders in my neighborhood...there were a few...a lot of old folks ....so we are caught in a battle...work our asses off to live the life we want to have and have no time for leisure activities....have our kids stay indoors or risk them getting hurt somehow....throw the old computer b/c there's a sale at Best Buy for an entire computer w/ printer for like $300 (so damn, easier to throw the old one in the trash than post on craigslist for someone to take it) right.....and although we maybe recycling, our counterparts at the end of the globe is using diesel fuel and throwing their trash on the street which eventually find it's way to the ocean..which eventually find it's way in some seafood we'll eat or soaked up by the soil we plant our vegetables on. Maybe it's all fuzzy logic but that's all part of the chaos theory.

This year was filled with a lot of changes.  With the exception of that incident and difficult month, it's been a  mostly great 2006.  I did a lot of travelling.  I made more time for myself. I made more time for my friends and family.  I think I started working so much because it really kept me busy. At that time in my life, that's all I wanted to do. Work and focus on it. Somewhere down the line, I had to take a break. Analyze my life and figure out if what I was doing was making me happy. This year...it became clear that I no longer need to work so much.....that i needed more free time again with friends and family. 

I realized it's becoming more difficult to work nights. Cutting my hours to part-time was the best decision I made this year. Adding hours to my day time has been good, but I don't know if it's been great. What I really want to start focusing on next year (besides my continued goal of losing weight and being healthy) is to do more activities that could make a difference in other people's lives.  Working in the health field, you really do make a difference. But I need something different now.  I want to do more artistic stuff. Hands on thing.  I think next year, I want to decorate a float. I also think by next year, I'll be cutting my hours to per diem at Northridge. I'm very happy at Cedars right now....maybe down the line I won't be...but right now, I'm satisfied and content w/ the job. 

The past two months have been very busy. Incredibly busy.  The great part about my job...I never have to take it home. Thank goodness. I don't know how people bring work home. 

So I'm still talking to Italian guy...I don't know where this is going to go...if it's even going to go anywhere. We finally saw each other this past Thursday after a month of texts and phone calls. I like this one.  A lot.  A part of me is very hesitant to like him.  I've gone without a boyfriend for almost 10 years now and the "relationships" I've had along the way...well, always felt temporary.  I'm not saying that I see this long run...hardly the case since I still feel we have a lot of "getting to know each other" deal. But I can also say I don't see this being "temporary" (yet).  It's nice to take things slow...a bit frustrating sometimes....I mean, we haven't even held hands! But it's cute.  My friends laugh at me cuz they even ask how I give my hugs. My friend JB keeps telling me "ass in" when you're hugging someone you like. I never even knew there was a difference! I mean, I know there are differences in hugging, but I feel like I hug all my friends the same. I give good hugs....and if I didn't like the person or didn't know the person, I'd give a handshake (or a wave).  ANYWAY, I digress.  We're suppose to meet up (techinically, this being morning) tonight. Hopefully it'll go through. Last week didn't count. We were suppose to have a lunch date, but he had to cancel on me b/c his work meeting had to be rescheduled around lunch time....but his saving grace is that he wanted to make plans to see me that night. Of course I was very disappointed, so I told him to just call me (since I had plans that night --> baking party with the Bridal Party Crew aka BPC).  I didn't expect to see him, but he did end up calling. He got brownie points for stopping over my friend's pad and hanging out with me and a bunch of strangers. He also got brownie points for being so cute....

Italian Boy (IB): I was wondering if you'd like to go for drinks
Me:  I'd love to, but I'm with my friends right now. I'm not even home.
IB: Where are  you?
Me: I'm in Studio City...on blank street
IB: I'm actually on that street. How many of you are there? I have room for 4.
Me: I'm actually drinking right now, but you're welcome to hangout here (whispers to friend, "is it ok", friend nods yes)
IB: Ok, I'll stop by as long as they don't mind.

I thought it was cute that he was willing to take me and my friends out for drinks (I've never had a guy do that before...at least without planning). Then after hanging out w/ my friends for at least an hour, I walked him down to his car....then he insisted on driving me back (even if it was 1/2 a block up and he'd have to do a U-turn to drop me off...and another U-turn to go back on the freeway). In the car he said, "You look nice". He must've been drinking a lot (j/k)...but seriously, I don't know how he could say that. I was in sweats and no make-up! Totally not my cutest at all....but it was nice for him to say that.

I hope I don't F this up though. I say this b/c part of me is soooo anxious. i want things to just move along...I met him in October. We've gone on 2.5 dates and each time, it's ended in a hug! I think we're both interested in each other and then just get really chicken. So last night, I texted him. I was suppose to call him back (but I had to go to sleep...and I was really tired..so i texted him that I was tired and didn't want to say anything silly like ask him to come over)...what was his response? Nothing.  I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing.  I didn't expect to hear from him today since we had no plans and he knows I work my day job and night job Mondays-Wednesdays....he does know I'm off tonight though...

So I'll see tonight if we'll meet up..and if not..then I guess I'll know. 

I went online today to check out my credit card bills...ouch. I spent a lot this season. Not as much as some, but a lot. A lot on me! This year I finally bought things I've been prohibiting myself to buy for me. Black Friday (day after Thanksgiving), I finally bought the portable DVD I've been wanting to buy for the past 3 years now.  I also bought some gifts and several boots the next day. I actually splurged on me....but now I gotta cut down on the spending so I can afford next month.

So I'm still keeping my options open. As my friend told me, "don't lay all your eggs in a basket". But it seems like I haven't been wanting to go out either. I think part of it has to do with me being hella tired. I am exhausted. Every free day is filled with some sort of event...and if I have no plans, I'm tagging along w/ Ivy to do her errands. But I plan on asking for some time off either in January or February....just to stay home and do nothing! Having two days off is cool (but it does no justice when it's not two consecutive days off). 

This year I'm not sending any x-mas cards...b/c I have no time this year. I do plan on emailing those that have taken the effort to send me a card though.

Anyway, I hope y'all are doing well....I can't believe next week is x-mas! I really can't believe that this month is almost over. What have I been doing?? What have you been doing?

It's been one of those weekends....one of those months!

Scary ride back home...which I care not to talk about right now from the SC tailgate this weekend. Next time, I am DD. 

My date with Italian guy was cancelled b/c he was hella busy and I was hella lazy (I didn't want to go out). But we've been texting each other...so that's good....

Happy B-day Kat! Glad I was able to make it to your dinner! I will have your gift soon!

Chicago guy ended up cancelling our "dates" this weekend due to "financial issues". He's nice...and I'm leaning more towards the friendship route anyway (actually....that's where it was leading to begin with) but kinda lame. I am tooo old to be dealing w/ peeps with financial issues. Don't get me wrong...I'm not being a "snob"...it's just reality check, I've been there, done that...don't need to repeat. But we can still be friends cuz he's a nice guy.

Out of nowhere, British guy calls...after a month??!! He tells me he's been out of town (for like the past week)..what happened to the other 3 weeks?? Anyway I'm still on the fence...don't know if I'm interested now.  I mean, I think we can chit chat it up...but maybe it's b/c I like the Italian guy...

But I am keeping my options open....

What else? I love the holidays!! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE it!! Stressful, but nice.  Alright, time for me to go to lunch.

Has it really been this long since my last entry? October flew by!!

I spent most of October celebrating birthdays...for my birthday, I had a small Morrocan dinner with a few close friends....the following day, I was on a plane to West Palm Beach Florida! The plane ride (both ways) was horrible....I didn't realize a Houston, TX would rain so much!!  But Palm Beach was beautiful...relaxing...the 4-star resort "Breakers Resort" was awesome. I got a mad tan (still tan too)....and I didn't want to come back! It was soooo beautiful to just do nothing but pamper oneself. I tagged along with Woosa for this trip and basically she "hosted" me (my only expense was the plane ride...and a taxi cab to the bar...everything else was paid for).  One of "welcome team" loved me...it was awesome! hahaha

Came back Thursday night just in time to make it to work Friday...and got sick from the plane ride back....but still had time to throw a big b-day party at my pad then a quick "bar/club" gathering at Liquid Kitty. That was my 2 week birthday party....

Then it was time to celebrate Ed's! Ed had his b-day in Vegas, but I couldn't go due to illness and work. I was really really sick...actually, I just got back this week for my night job. 

Besides the partying....I am dating....not the official "seeing someone"...but dating. We're actually going on our 3rd date this week.  It's been really nice.  I am still trying to date others, but this one has captured my interest. The only thing is that he is busy...which is good, but b/c of our schedules, we rarely see each other but once a week. He's busy on weekends with work...and I'm free Thursdays to Sundays.....so our only free day is actually Thursdays....what can I tell you about him so far???

 He is 2 years younger then me.  Has an accent. Not my usual type of guy, but I'm glad I called him back and went on a date with him. I was so hesitant when we had our first date....but it was really nice. Just talking......getting to know each other.  Yup...that's all I'm going to say. I don't want to get tooo excited since I'm still not really sure where this is going. Right now, all I know is that there's interest. We're taking things slow...which is nice.

So my coworker was Clark Kent for Halloween...I was cracking up so much when I saw the pic cuz it was cute and original. He was like "I'm the black Clark Kent"....I think it's fun working at a hospital and seeing employees in costume....cuz you're not really suppose to wear costume...so it was cool to see some of them able to. Of course coworker took a safe route, he had a "superman t-shirt under his work clothes" and wore glasses....It was such an easy costume, but I would've never thought of it.

My other coworker was wearing all white...from the front it looked like scrubs (which we don't wear since we're not nurses/techs, etc) but when you look from the back, it's a sailor costume...it was really cute too.   I can't think of an "easy" costume for women that would "blend" w/ work.....anyone???

From the beginning of this year to now, i've lost a total of 10 lbs...not a lot and I still have several hundred more lbs to lose, but it's a start.  I'm into this low glycemic thing and so I've been a lot more vegetables and fruits nowadays. I still have to get use to drinking more water.  But now, I eat breakfast on a regular....and I try to eat every 3 hours that I'm up (usually fruit/vegetables) and keep my main meals during the day. 

Went wedding dress shopping with Cheryl....omg....it's such hard work to plan a wedding! I'm so glad it's not me...I don't think I'd enjoy it...looks more complicated...i mean right now, her bridesmaids (includes me) are having difficulty finding a dress we all like...and we're all different body types....I'm requesting that I go to a seamstress...clothes just fit better and look better when you go that route. 

On a totally random note...I'm becoming forgetful! oh no!! I can't remember where I put things sometimes...i.e. can't seem to remember what i did with my "mary mary" by Patterson book.  I made this agreement w/ another coworker to exchange books with him. He's an avid reader and I'm tired of paying buco bucks to read a novel I can finish in 2 days....hahaha...books add up man!!