The Libra Woman: September 23 - October 22
by Susan Miller

Libra women have busy social calendars and keep happy by surrounding themselves with adoring friends. Still, this lady wants to be married, so don't be fooled by her gadding about. Once wed, she will attend to her marriage as fiercely as her career.

**Aight, I'll give this to 'em...I usually plan weeks in advance, I like doing things with friends and often like to be surrounded by peeps...I'd like to get married --> if I find the right guy**

Always fashionably-dressed, she favors an eclectic look, mixing designer things with antique pieces. The final effect is smart and sexy, never dowdy. This Venus-ruled beauty is beautifully groomed, and smells as good as she looks, for she never leaves the house without a light spray of something intoxicating. Her figure is usually curvy, svelte and feminine, so you don't even stand a chance of resisting her. The most memorable quality about your Libra lover is her quintessential grace; in every movement she makes, every word she utters, she is poetry in motion.

**I'm not sure about this....if I had more money & time, I'd probably dress better...right now...don't think I dress too cute...and the perfume thang..I always forget!! But I'm getting better at it**

Your Challenge

Your mission 007, is to capture her heart. Not an easy task, considering the line of men waiting in line. She has no shortage of opportunities, so competition will be stiff.

**damn, if there's a line, I wonder where the f*ck it starts...and where the hell it is**

How To Handle Her

She has powerful talents of persuasion and her lover may not know exactly how she gets her way, but she does every time--in the most charming fashion. Be wary of getting wrapped around her little finger, for although she may protest, she secretly likes a man who stands up to her now and then. If you are only semi-conscious most of the time, you don't stand a chance of winning her heart.

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Things to do, gifts to buy

Think of the cherubs in old master paintings, flying though the air, holding branches of roses or a lovely harp. This describes your angelic lover. She'd adore anything decorative, from sweetheart roses, soft silk lingerie in a delicate colors, to perfume in a modern or gentle floral tone (nothing jarring for Libra). One of Libra's favorite gifts is jewelry, but it has to be the real thing. Costume jewelry will tarnish, just like your relationship will if you try to give her this. Robbing a bank may be your only choice to get her what she wants. She might also enjoy a beautiful mirror, framed in gold leaf. Let's pause a moment --perhaps you've just thought of something naughty? Before you get carried away, let me advise you that not all Libras like making love in front of a mirror. Venus endowed her with curves and she may be a bit self-conscious about them (silly girl.) Put the mirror up in the bedroom and let her gradually get used to it. Keep telling her how tell her how gorgeous she looks without a stitch on.

**The jewelry thing...so true. Flowers...well, I like 'em. But I'm more of the "thought that counts"...i.e. I'll find it romantic when I'm lying in bed and he turns on the heater on a winter day cuz he's leaving for work and won't have the body heat to keep me warm...I like stuff like that....I don't like gaudy stuff...I like to keep it simple...as for the mirror....no comment**

The Libra woman adores lighter foreplay activities and is a world-class kisser. If you haven't yet tapped into this aspect of her, you are missing one of life's true experiences. Corner her into a hot necking session somewhere like at the movies, where the other viewers won't care if you and she are going at one another like two kids hell bent on trouble. If you are lucky, the usher may come with her flashlight and scold you!

When you finally get her to bed she will want a slow hand, for Libra women never marry cold fish or slam-bam-thank-you-m'am types. She is highly romantic and sensitive and wants you to be that way too. Her bed usually has many fluffy pillows and the most beautiful linens she can afford. She wants music in the bedroom, but no TV (too indelicate--who wants to hear about the Congressional budget or a mugging in Queens when one is in the throes of passion?) One last hint: Libra rules the lower back and will purr like a kitten when her man massages it with a lightly scented cream. Meow!

Lately, all I want to do is chill. I haven't been in the mood to go out. All I want to do now is just stay at home...stay in my room...sleep.  I've also been thinking a lot about what I'm going to do with work. I love working at Cedars but I really need to change my schedule. I hate waking up so early....I miss sleeping in.  I need to figure out if I should keep on with school or make this into a career....I still don't know what I want to do.

I want a house....I want my own place.  I want to travel. I want a day at the spa. I want a lot more....I like the money I make. I like overtime...I want a job that pays more overtime

I saw "Hitch" 2day. I really liked it. It was really cute. I like how Wil Smith's character wasn't a jerk...how he only helped "nice" guys who really like the girls they wanted. It's a cute date movie....

Speaking of "hitch"...CONGRATULATONS to Hien and Steve on their engagement!! I'm so happy for the two of you! I can't wait to attend the wedding

Ever been in love? Ever been in love that it hurts so much when you lose that person? Is it all worth it?

I have to decide if I like having my days or my nights off.....and then decide from there....

i'm surrounded by idiots

If you want something done right....you have to do it yourself.  You'd think that a health insurance company (or your medical group) for that fact would know what's covered and not covered. You'd think a very common form of birth control...well, you'd think they'd know the formulary of that brand....but NO. So they charge me $95....I contest saying I wasn't told it was not covered and furthermore I was not charged that amount in 2004. I lose the battle...I try to pay for it, but the Medical Group/Family Practice billing department NEVER EVER return calls (don't use Northridge Medical Group --> they seriously suck). But I guess it's a blessing in disguise...cuz I'm looking through this Health Insurance booklet that has lists of drugs...guess what, the formulary of my birth control is listed as COVERED....it's just not the brand name.  I'm going to contest again (well, first I'm going to talk to my friend Trish about this stuff cuz she's a pharmacist)...hopefully I'll win and I won't have to change my BC.

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Totally random....

My right hand nails grow a lot faster than my left hand nails. I just noticed this because I put some acrylics on and you can totally see the difference. Maybe it's because I use my right hand a lot more (being right handed and all) and thus the nails get more stimulated...they say if you tap your nails, it'll grow faster.  Anyone care to do the study...I would, but I have no patience.

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This weekend...

I chilled at home. I crashed Friday night....coworker (after his "diss" on Wed) ask "where the party was" on Friday...told him I had no clue. Slept like a log and quickly Friday night. Next thing I know, it's Saturday and I'm getting up for work (again). After work, I went grocery shopping (salad stuff, soda stuff, salmon, beef)....of course I wait til last minute to check my grill --> low and behold, there's a freakin' hole through the grill!! WTF!! That's what I get for letting neighbors use it. So while the boy (i'm not going to mention his name...but let's just call him..hmmmm Oceanside) is almost at my pad, I'm leaving my pad to find a grill....and of course, every place I go...they don't have it.  We end up using my neighbor's propane grill. Which is fine, but there's definitely a difference with charcoal grill, gas grill and propane grill in terms of taste. Oh yeah, AZ came to visit earlier on too...it's weird...I think I've really distance myself with AZ.  But back to Oceanside....I really want us to be friends, but my heart adores him.  It's bittersweet cuz I care so much about him but I know it'll never go anywhere.  Such is life.  I even made chocolate covered strawberries and baked cookies....but damn, the guys I go out with...are so fickle when it comes to food.

Oh yeah, I lost 4 lbs.

Sunday, I worked (as usual). I was suppose to go on a date with Jamaican guy. I called him while I was at work. Told him I get off at 12 but i had to do a quick errand. Said I'd call him once I'm done. I called him around 1245. Said he needed time to get ready....gave him an hour....2 hours later (I still haven't heard from him)...granted, I really didn't want to go out cuz...well...I just didn't...I've been avoiding this forever but finally the guilt got to me and I finally agreed to go out with him...but I was tired afterall and I needed to sleep by 4ish...so when 3 came along, I went to sleep. Of course he called while I was asleep...first off...2 hours later??? I don't think so....What took him so long?? I just get this "shady" vibe from him...so I didn't pick up...I did tell him I was going to sleep though...and he didn't leave a message...so hopefully that's the end of it.

AND WHAT ABOUT MONDAYS?

Busy busy busy.  Irrate patients...crazy phone calls....busy transfers that get cancelled...and why the heck does coworker keep talking to me? The more I try to avoid him and keep my distance...the more he seems "interested"...gosh I hate the game sometimes....I really hate the game.

I hate working here at Northridge....well, at least this department. They don't support their staff. They don't do jack shit. They take PTO out even though you don't sign a request for PTO...and to top it all off, there's no connection to the web to find out our benefits. The longer I work here, the more I wonder if it's worth working so many nights. I already cut my hours down from 40 hours a week to 32 here...but I'm thinking of cutting it even more. I just can't stand the bullshit here. FACT: my boss takes off w/o telling anyone and gets paid for it twice! First b/c she gets paid for that day (cuz she's salary) and second cuz she doesn't claim it as vacation time! Total bullshit...and she bullshitting about my hours? At least when I'm off, I'm letting them know I'm off and I'm requesting not to get paid...yet, they take my PTO (even though I'm not requesting that they do that)...this is bullshit.

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Still a busy day, but a much better day. After last nights' hectic work night, I was able to put some snooze in and woke up feeling a little bit better. Got to work within 50 minutes....so it was definitely starting off well. Was put in charge of morning activities at Cedars again.  The UR women seem to like my approach/style (although I don't think there's a difference in what I ask/do during these meeting with my counterparts) better than the usual peeps that attend the meeting.  We had a lot of discharges, we had a lot of admits. Originally we had all these discharges but no one to admit so we started calling peeps on our waiting list. Next thing I know we're full in the ER and the peeps we wanted in who've been waiting awhile...well, we had to postpone them until the next day. Hopefully we'll have some beds manana.

I was in such a good mood (and needed to walk around) that I volunteered to get food for peeps who wanted food  at Grand Lux. I was craving a salad...how I ended up with Miso salmon...I dunno. I even treated coworker who keeps saying he owes me...told him he sure did! hahaha.

I was gonna workout right after work, but it was so hot and I started cleaning my room a bit. Then I ended up drinking a glass of bacardi and diet. I couldn't finish it...eeew, dark Barcardi isn't so yum. I ended up sleeping at 530ish. Now I'm back at work.  Gosh, I live such an exciting life! yeah right!

So cousin Ivy calls me and she might've lost the souvenier cigarette case I got her from Thailand.  Bummer. She had it while outside of Sangria...checked my car, but didn't see it. I know she loves the gift...it was a nice gift afterall.  But I'm sure it's just hiding in one of her many bags she brought along that night.

Rana leaves for East Coast this weekend. Woosa's b-day bash is this upcoming Thursday. Still don't know if I can make it.  I might just have to treat her out another night. 

I miss my family. I miss my parents. Cuz I've been working so much, I haven't had the chance to stop by the house to see how they're doing. I'm definitely going to have to go visit this weekend and just chill....of course, I gotta see if Eric and Angelica will be free this weekend...I just have to drop off Lori and Merrick's gifts (yeah, it's been over a month now, but I haven't had the chance to see them) seriously. 

I can't believe July is almost coming to an end.  Before I know it, October will be around the corner. I'm thinking of taking a weekend off in August (so I can go to Vegas). I really want to just chill...drink...yeah..the usual.

So I'm suppose to go hiking manana...but I'm also suppose to hang out with coworker as well.  I guess I'll find out what happens manana...see how the day unfolds. hahaha

I got soul but I'm not a soldier!

Extremely busy week for me. I have some mad hours this week. Not only did I not take off last week (hahaha), I'm working an extra day this week at Cedars. We're understaffed since 2 of my colleagues have to go for that "sharing is caring" class or something like that. Like I mentioned earlier...this weekend was hard. The lack of sleep caught up with my attiitude today, but the only person getting it was coworker....he kinda deserved it though after a "tiff" this weekend....we are so not on the same page. He text me this weekend (and after our tiff I told him I won't be texting him) but the fool expected me to text back. So of course today, I get the comments..."you don't have time for me...blah blah blah"....i'm so over it.

We're cool....I'm just tired of having to try to understand what exactly is his point! In fact we keep "miscommunicating"!! But whatever...he has no time to explain what he means...and vice versa.

So I'm all attitude right now cuz people are so LAME sometimes!! First off...I get irked by people who do things half assed! Some might say I'm "anal" with details at work, but I'm just thorough. Today just irked cuz we were understaffed and I got stuck with a busy workload this weekend....and (surprise surprise) I ended up taking care of everything this morning. I don't mind the responsibility, it's just I'm lacking sleep and I need peeps to do their part! For example, I had a gentlemen calling all last week and he was repeatedly told to call back when he had a problem. You know, some people are confused and don't know how to articulate or explain things well. If we all just took the time to LISTEN.  Anyway, it turns out he needed a psych eval (even though he felt there was no mental health problem going on with him) because he's a liver transplant recipient --> so a psych eval was needed (and this was a new program that was incorporated)....we weren't told about it...but guess what, I actually called the damn therapist in charge of these evals and he confirmed it with me and went over the procedures...was that too hard??! NO. But back to today, it was just a busy day...I was irked that I had to do a lot of the "information gathering". Apparently I'm good at it and that's why peeps seem to come to me when it comes to technical matters. Of course it didn't help that we had a Code Grey (violent situation) and a code red (fire drill) one after the other today! Can you believe this??!!

I left work with tensed muscles....but I managed to get home and sleep...but here at Northridge, worse BS. Crisis team won't call hospitals so I'm left calling facilities...and my coworker didn't get all necessary information to begin with...you know what, when you have a form...try to fill out everything! Okay...I'm gonna stop ranting cuz it's doing me no good at this time. Yeah improper English too...what you going to do about it??

So why so pissy? Well, here's my schedule starting this past Saturday.

Sat 8AM-12P: work...afterwards, I went to do all that stuff with my cousin
Sun 8A-12P: work, and I only got 3 hours sleep max, then from 3P-9P slept
Sun 11P - 630A: work
Mon 730A to 4P work
Mon 11P to 7A work
Tuesday 8A to 4P work
Tuesday 11P to 630 work
Wednesday 730A to 4P work
Wednesday night: Hiking and going out with girlfriends
Thursday (free in the AM) but back to work at 11P to 630A 
Friday 730A to 4P work...now do you see where I'm cranky? I so need to fix this damn schedule.....

Aight..i'm going to try to nap now...ciao. 

Congratulations Mr. & Mrs. Izuno!!! Jace is so cute!!
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So I finally got all of my fake nails off....and since I found my ring  (okay my mom found it) I decided to wear it today so I can enjoy it.

I'm in a "funk"...well, I'm more in a reflective mood...

a few days later

Still in a funk.  So I made this weekend a "beauty day" weekend. All I need now is spa day.  I went and got my eyebrows done. Also went and got a pedicure as well as some acrylics...I know I know...acrylics are not good!! But my nails now look nice and purty!

Still working out  Still need to lose a lot of weight  and I'm growing my hair (again) so that I can add layers.  I will miss short hair.

A bunch of my friends who've been together for years are breaking up.  I had a couple that was engaged and they broke up.  There's something going on in the air....

I'm debating if I should go to Europe next year.  Definitely going to Hawaii...and if I go to Europe I'd like to go two only 1 or 2 countries for no less than 1.5 weeks.  My friend wants to go for a month, but there's no way I can do that. I'd like to see Rome, Greece, France, England and Germany. Of course I'd also like to go to Australia. 

Going to Long Beach Wednesday night to check out this new club that has a live band. That should be interesting....

This weekend, went to Sangria and hung out with Tricia, Ivy, Dori, Michelle, Veronica and Noel. I was DD so I watched everyone else get drunken. It was a good thing though cuz I had to drive from South Bay to Eagle Rock back to LA. I didn't get to bed until 400am and I had to be at work at 8am. No guys worth mentioning although I had some drunk fool come up to me and say "i think you're awesome" and kissed me on the cheek.  WTF!! That is so not cool...and seriously, what do you do or say when that happens?? Cuz he's drunk and not being a jerk...I just smiled and said thanks...and on his way he went...the cool thing now  Monica is working the door!! Yay

After work today, was gonna go see mis padres but ended up not going since I finished lunch around 2pm with Nic...and I had to be at work here tonight by 11pm...so I figured, I'll just go home this Thursday or something. I really need to get my weekends off (somehow).

Aight, time for me to go. Hope all is well for everyone.

So after work Saturday, I headed to Geoff's place to hang out with Cheryl.  I wasn't going to go, but after a nap at the house, I decided to stop being lazy and get myself moving. I wore my bathing suit and packed work clothes (just in case I slept over). I made a stop over at the Ralph's near Geoff's and bought French Vanilla ice cream and chocolate cake to go with the Port I bought in Lodi.  I also ended up buying some groceries....I got a great deal on steaks...they were originally $25 but on sale for $9. I couldn't pass up the deal!

Anyway, after lounging in the jacuzzi, Cheryl and I tried to pick everything up from the table. I was holding on the the bowl of grapes, two empty wine glasses, the chips, and the cheese tray with knife. Cheryl was holding on to the magazines, laptop and our phones. Somewhere along the way from the pool to Geoff's house, everything that Cheryl holds fall and my phone had the unfortunate chance of falling into the pool. I was pretty calm and not mad. I figure the phone can be easily replaced. I was more concerned on the SIM card since I don't have anyone's tel written down anywhere else.

After removing the batteries and sim out of the phone and letting it air dry, my phone surprisingly works. Granted, there's two vertical lines but it's not so bad. Everything else seems to work well, but I think it's time for me to upgrade anyway.

Yesterday, I did nothing but work and I had dinner with Nicole at Natalie Thai. She ordered the garlic shrimp and it was so garlicky!! I couldn't even eat it, but I packed them on the "to go" box anyway (minus all the garlic).

I've been a homebody lately. I just don't want to do go out. It took a lot of energy out of me to go to Geoff's! Okay, energy isn't the word...more like I had to force myself to get out of my house.

Speaking of homes, I really want to buy one...but a las, it's going to be another year or two, going to save up more money.

So Nisa will be interning at CHOC pediatrics dep't. I hope she'll have a great experience.

Alright got to go, the phone here keeps ringing.

I'm back from Lodi and it was a nice weekend off to be with friends. The difference between HS friends and college friends is that HS friends know the "old" you.  The type of girl that just likes to sit around and talk about silly stuff with friends....of course I talk silly stuff w/ my college friends..but the silliness is different.  With my HS friends I'm a lot calmer...more mellow. I can sit and talk about the most boring stuff in the world and we'd all get each other...probably b/c we're really big nerds to begin with (hahaha).

Hien's place is cute. All we did was eat!! Cuz Steve overestimated on grubbage. So we spent the next few days eating leftovers.  Of course I had to beg Hien for me to cook dinner. I made my salmon specialty.  Lodi is a really nice place. It's the up-and-coming wine country. It's always been one of the biggest grape producers but no wineries around. Finally there's a few good ones in the area. They're really known for the Zins (zinfindels) yup, i spelled it wrong. But I bought 2 Port (great with desserts), 2 white wines (did you know they're only good for up to 2 years?) and 1 red wine from Jewel winery. Lodi is also one of the few places where wine tasting is still free! So I really I wanted to at least experience the big deal with wine tasting.

I only wanted to go to 1 winery since I knew I'd be buzzing afterwards. They only pour a little bit in your glass, but (depending on the winery) have a lot of wines to go through. We started with the white wines (they had about 6) then we went with the reds (they had 9). They ran out of Pinot Grigio b/c of Sideways. Too bad, I really like Pinot, but the Port made up for it. I can't wait to open it on a special dessert night with friends.

So Hien will be moving to MI for vet school. Steve will stay at their house for awhile and then move to MI with her. But they won't be selling their house cuz they plan to come back to Cali. Differences between Northern Cali peeps and Southern Cali peeps....Northern Cali peeps are very hands on (well, maybe it was b/c of their friends). But they know how to fix up the roof of their house...most southern cali peeps would hire someones to do it instead! Oh yeah for 4th of July we hung out with Thomas Kinkade's PR man...he was hella cool and those N's really do exist in his paintings.

Anyway...work calls...

I was suppose to set up a date today...but I flaked. I just didn't want to go out. I have a lot of important...yet not very important things going on in my life --> don't know if that makes any sense.

HAPPINESS...driving to work the other day, I was listening to the radio...and the topic was relationships. One of them striked a cord...cuz I know many people who fall into this category...I'm sure you know a few of them...heck it can even be you. So the person on the line was concerned that her daughter has been going from one relationship to the next...with not a long break in between those relationships.  What took my interest was what the doctor said on the line...that people who go from one relationship to the next don't have time to figure themselves out because it's so much easier to focus on making someone happy than to figure out what made you happy. 

I've been single since 2000, but I don't consider myself single until 2003 cuz I spent a big chunk of 2000 to 2002 dating and getting serious with one guy to the next (without the damn title too)....even now, as much as I feel I know myself a little better...I'm still trying to figure out what makes me happy.  I did nothing today...it was one of those rare days when I didn't have to work during the day or made plans to meet with anyone.  So what did I do? I slept the whole day...went to my parents...had lunch with mom and then slept...the whole day. I felt like I wasted my day.....what makes me happy?

Angelino Jolie was quoted saying that helping others made her happy. But it's easy for her to fnd that time...especially when you have money. If you're rich, is it easier to be happy? It's definitely easier to pursue one's goals/one's dreams....

But look at all the rich celebrities out there....a lot are unhappy.

I'd like to find someone that gets me. I like being able to share some time cooking dinner with someone....I like sleeping next to a warm body and holding each other's hand...leading to no sex at all. I like holding hands in public....

How do you know that he/she is the one? I've only felt that once in my life....it was such a deep emotional feeling that I don't think I can ever capture that again.  I just had this feeling in my heart that I wouldn't mind living the rest of my life with this man and I'd be happy. Sadly, I was wrong....I guess that's why I'm just so weary....maybe jaded.  I refuse to commit to anyone/anything. Strangely, I'm a happier person knowing this.  I haven't felt "lonely" or "alone" since I decided to take this attitude. 

I feel like an empty slate waiting to be filled with all these experiences..but I fear I keep pushing myself to the edge...which is scary (when I think of it)....it's a quiet night tonight. I keep thinking I should quit working my night job but the truth is that it's an easy night job...i just can't stand working every freakin' day...but look what happens when I have a day off...i don't do a damn thing.

Anyway, going up north this weekend....looking forward to some time with friends...