Today...I have a massive headache that's been going on since 12:00pm. My coworker, Alan gave me motrin....I'm still waiting for it to work.

Yesterday, I spent almost $100 on car upkeep....I still think the Toyota Dealership near my house sucks. I paid them $35 to check my breaks...they then said I should get an allignment next time...so I took my car to the nice, reliable and cheaper mechanic near my parents pad.  Considering I got the car alligned at Toyota about 2 months ago (and remember, I was not driving my car for almost 2 weeks worth)....I don't think they do a good job.

Tomorrow...we're having a good-bye party for the girls going to the East Coast. Gonna miss them, but I know I'll be seeing them soon.

Shacy..since I know you read my bloq from time to time...did Chris know that Jeff left?? Craziness....

Other news...it's  been a hard month for a lot of my girls....breakups galore.  Sending a special hug to my close friend out there...sorry you had to find out the worse way, but at least you found out instead of maryring the a-hole.  Seriously...why do guys cheat?

It's funny how life can change in a matter of seconds, minutes, hours, days, months.

Since I came back from Thailand, my world seems a whole lot bigger...a lot more things to see, feel, learn...basically experience. The moment you let go of what's holding you back, the moment you see doors opening! And once these doors open, something strange happens...your luck changes.

Just when I though it was over....a new door opens to reveal a different type of friendship. Just when I thought I couldn't let go...I closed my eyes and basically let go.

I'm looking forward to my cruise, but my cruise agent(s) are morons that don't return emails (I've been trying to get them to correct my itinerary for the past 2 months). Seriously, sometimes I wonder about customer service these days....is it really thatdifficult to just tell people the truth. Chris...wish you didn't leave there!! I swear you're the only one that knew what you were doing...and sorry if I offend any of those ur friends with there...but seriously, they need to get their shit together --> I'm talking about Jeff and Dee!

I thought I was getting old and missing my time. But when you're having fun and decide there's so much more out there....suddenly you don't feel so old, but really young and really don't have time to be tied to one string...

If you're attach, enjoy each other. Love each other. Care for each other. There's also lots to experience together in couplehood.

If you're single...enjoy the fact that nothing is holding you back but you. The great part about being single at this moment...I have no obligations. I can decide to move, change jobs, go on vacation, etc. at any time cuz I'm living for me. I'm being selfish, but that's b/c I have that right to make that choice. But when you have someone to look after, someone to care about...that's when you gotta put their feelings and their life into consideration. That's when you can no longer be really selfish.

I've been reading a lot.

I know I should focus on school, but I'm really in no rush...crazy how things change. I use to be such a bookworm...nerdy school girl...but I can't even get myself to look at a freakin' anatomy coloring book. Well, hopefully next semester, I'll get a class...cuz it sucks not being able to get any class I want...and I know I can't keep living the way I'm livin'!! I mean, dammit, I want to be a homeowner and I want to travel more!!

So I have a dilemma...I'm trying to sign up for class...all the anatomy classes are closed! I figure I could sign up for a Radiology Tech class...guess what?? In order to take the RT102 class, I have to take Anatomy & Physiology first...how dumb is that? I guess it's not too dumb cuz you need to know about the body and stuff (it's an actual RT class!!) where you learn body positioning, etc...but with all the majors requiring Anatomy & Physiology and with limited room...we're kinda stuck....uh oh! Looks like I'm going to have to look at other colleges for these classes.

Can you imagine someone who's lived a lie for 7 years? Telling everyone that she's doing great and getting A's...gonna go to med school, etc? Telling her parents all is good...and in order to believe in these lies, they get more elaborate...to the point where she can no longer differentiate reality from her lies?  

What was she doing for the 7 years? Creatng gambling problems, maxing out the credit cards, etc....

Today was a busy day at work. I had to see this kid unravel infront of me. Knowing that a lot of people were hurt along the road of deception...and finally realizing the only person she was hurting was herself. At least she had that insight and strength to admit that she had a problem. That she needed help...and that she sought it out. That takes courage and strength and I told her that. I told her it wasn't going to be an easy road back..but she's turning her life around.

So not recommended by so many who've been there and done that...but he's hot and he's so fine!!! I mean...is there really harm to being really bad??

Why wait around and hope while he has fun?? Shoot...time to live their motto....

One of the craziest weekends I've had in a long time...okay not  a long time...but damn...talk about craziness and hella busy!

Honestly, Friday was a big blur to me. I think I stayed home...yeah, that's what I did. I stayed home and slept. Woke up at 5am!! Did some videos then went running at 6am. Got ready and went to work. At 12, I quickly went to my car cuz I thought I was going to be late for Lori's & Merrick's wedding. But I wasn't. I got there 30 minutes early. I always thought Merrick was quiet, but when you meet his family!! Dood...they are so outgoing and such entertainers! Lori looked great in her wedding dress and it was a traditional Catholic Wedding with some Filipino influence. 

The wedding and the reception were hours apart, so I ended up going with Eric to Romy's (Angelica's brother) place in Pasadena. Auntie Teh bought Chinese food and we grubbed. I always feel at home and part of the family when hanging with Angelica and her family. So Auntie Lillian (Angelica's aunt) wanted to introduce me to her son...so I met him on Monday (but that's another story)...BACK TO SATURDAY.

We chilled for a bit at Romy's then went to the Omni Hotel for the reception. Saw Jess, Rachel, Woosa, Maclan, Cindy, Audrey...basically the girls. They all looked great and it was fun seeing them on such a wonderful occasion. It was a long day and I was getting tired...so by 11pm I headed out (after I did the $$ dance with Merrick).

So I'm driving home and Mr. Smiles calls me. He wants to know what I'm doing...the only plans I have is to go home and sleep..so I tell him that....

FLASHBACK
I'm at work and I get this email...Mr. Smiles and I continue to chat via email. He says he's like the UPS man always delivers...anywho, I ask Mr. Smiles if he's going to deliver me jewelry cuz I love jewelry...he say he'll give me a necklace...I told him I need a gold necklace.

BACK TO ME DRIVING HOME
So Mr. Smiles says he'll just go home (he's with his bro) and I get home, but I get a call from Woosa who tells me that Audrey is meeting up at her place and Mr. J is bringing the alcohol and that I should ask Mr. Smiles to come and hang out....(I've been crushing on Mr. Smiles for awhile now). So I call Mr. Smiles and ask him to come by but he's already in the Valley (like in Valencia...so I'm like..okay, raincheck) and he's like "why didn't u tell me sooner...I call u to see if u want to hang and u tell me u want to sleep..." THIS HAS BEEN EDITED to be RATED G...Anyway, Mr. Smiles ends up saying "You owe me" cuz he thinks I flaked...and after our necklace discussion...hahahaha...so I end up going to Woosa's anyway and meet up with Audrey and some guys...let's just say it was one crazy night.

SUCH A CRAZY DRUNKEN NIGHT that I went to work 1/2 an hour late...and had to stay 1/2 an hour later. After work on Sunday, I head out to Tujunga for Geoff's House Party....so many food! I've never had sooo much to choose from in a regular house party where parents didn't provide the food. I brought fried chicken, rotisserie chicken, and two packages of hot Italian sausages. There was so much to eat...chips, vegetables, corn, ribs, carne asada, grilled chicked, tosino, loganisa...you name it...we didn't run out of it!! So much food!! I was suppose to meet Mr. Smiles at John's jacuzzi (hahaha, but my drunk ass ended up agreeing to meet him at my place)...which never happened cuz I sobered up, got chicken (as usual) and was so darn tired I slept over at Geoff's.

Woke up Monday late morning and went to the pad. Got ready (again) then headed out to the Teh resident. They had one of the best BBQ ever...I mean, who serves crab at a BBQ?!! It was soo good....so I met Auntie Lillian's son, but I don't think he was interested...I played in cool...if anything, we can be friends! I actually thought he was interesting and wouldn't mind getting to know him better...but he doesn't live in Cali..which pretty much turned me off when I found out about that...but I stayed at Angelica's til 10pm...and I promised to make catfish adobo when I see them next Saturday.

I've been such a lazy bum...granted, I worked out with my cousin on Wednesday, had chicken salad and I grilled some steak...and chitchatted with model Matt for a bit...okay, so he's won a lot of brownie points...now I don't just see him as some Model with no brains..he's actually hella nice and his daugther is so cute! Anyway, I digress....got several good recipe's I want to make the next few weeks!! So if you're down for some home cooking...holla cuz I'm down to cook!!

Oh, what am I doing today? After work, I invited Mr. Smiles for Happy Hour....To Be Continued...

So I got back about a week ago. Spent some time at mom and dad's...then met up with Cheryl, Geoff, Ed, Paras, John and Sabrina...and Kenny (who came by around 12am) @ Geoff's new pad in Tujunga. Really really nice. I'll take pics tomorrow (he's having a holiday party)...I've been working like crazy...only b/c I spent a lot of money on stuff while in Thailand.

First off Thailand is really affordable --> as long as you don't go buck wild on buying jewelry (I bought 2 rings --> both 14K gold band, one with a ruby (which I gave to my mom) the other was a pink sapphire ring w/ diamonds (which was for moi), then I got my mom 14K gold ruby (it's her birthstone) earring, bought myself a 14K white gold Italian bracelet, bought Anita (she gave me a little spending money) black pear pendant, bought my dad a brown crocodile wallet, bought myself one too)...I had a great time shopping . 

What else...I went parasailing in Kolo Beach (I spelled it wrong), rode on an elephant in Pattaya, saw the Tiffany show in Pattaya, saw the FantaSea Show in Phuket, went to Burma & Laos while in Chiang Mei....saw dozens of temples and monks, drank a lot...5 bottles (not including regular cups) throughout our trip...bought a boy --> well..kinda....in Bangkok, we ended up at some Gay Bar showcase...and we finished one bottle...bought another one...already pissed drunk, some dood working there sat next to me...at the end of the night...gotta tip the guy...it's sad though...the sex industry is prominent in Thailand...but understandable --> it pays for their living...just sad. It was so sad for me, I freakin' cried at the bar!! Go figure...I'm such a dork sometimes. What else...we saw bugs to eat for sale, had BBQ (it was soooo good), their fried fish is good too...shoot, a lot of the food was good --> but I got sick the last week...dunno if it was the pancakes I ordered in Koh Phagan.

But I am glad to be back! No longer talking to Chino Boy (for those of you who've been following..that's K)....it hurts a bit when I think that he really doesn't care but at the same time, it's a huge relief that I'm no longer in that mess. I haven't really been going out since I got back...choosing to rather stay at home. But I did see the Alicia Keys concert with Rana, Steph, Woosa, Nikki and Christine. Then I dragged Rana to my cousin's very Asian b-day party...but it was fun times. 

Today...going to a sister's wedding. Then manana, going to Geoff's pad for his holiday party. I got the night off...so that's always good.  Nothing too exciting going on in my personal life...all I've been focused on since I got back is my diet and exercising. Which is a good thing --> now if I can only keep away from the damn chips....

Okay so I haven't updated. I leave for Thailand tomorrow. I'm still not packed. But i will be.  I've been running around getting things for my trip. So far (as far as meds are concerned), I have tagament (to get rid of the turning red in the face after drinking), my malaria pills (been taking them since last Thursday), pills for major poopage (yeah yeah...sounds gross...but just in case that happens, I got pills for those), airborne (for our plane ride), crashers (making sure i don't get a hangover), and deet (okay, so it's not really medication..but darnit...it's going to help repel those pesky mosquitos).

I saw AZ yesterday. We had Chinese food at Pine House. If he didn't move to AZ, I think we would've gotten together by now.  We'd have some really fun times. But he moved and I'm here...and he signed up for another 12 years in the military (cuz he says he needed the money) --> what the heck is he thinking?  Actually I don't even want to talk about this....but I saw him and he's still cute...and we're friends.

This past weekend, I went to Elias' 1st birthday. He is such a cutie!!! He's now walking and he's such a happy kid...really happy kid. I like watching him cuz he's so fun to watch. If you smile at him, he'll look at you with those dark brown smiling eyes of his and then show his pearly whites --> and seriously, he has a lot of teeth for a 1 year old...really nice teeth! I went out that night with Ivory....went to some bar/club in Santa Monica and met the friends she made from her European trip.

I am counting the hours...I can't concentrate..i want to go home...wish I was home..sleeping....so that I can get up to have happy hour with the girls (I plan on packing tomorrow)....what do I need to pack --> pants, shorts, bathing suit, dress, tops, socks, sandals, sneakers, 1 pair of dress shoes, unmentionables, toothbrush & toothpaste, deodorant,  travelling book, journal, passport (of course), q-tips, toilet covers (yup, someone gave them to me), wet wipes, contacts & solution & cover, makeup (just the bare minimum --> basically, eyeliner, lipstick and eye shadow)...I think that's it...oh wait, umbrella (just in case)...am I forgetting anything??

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7709261/  it's not the fact that she ran cross country and got cold feet that bothers me...infact, I don't think a lot of people are bothered by that, but the fact that she LIED that she was kidnapped...that's just wrong. It's interesting how this author never mentions it...never mentions how insulting and wrong it was for this bride to single out a group....makes me wonder why she said "hispanic"...makes me wonder how long it took her to come up with that story...whatever the case, i think the general public would've been more than understanding if she didn't take that route but just admitted she got cold feet and got scared and was truly sorry for worrying a lot of people, for putting her family and fiance through hell, and putting tax payers even more in the hole then ever.

Okay...that's all....doing a lot better. Happy. Got Luciano's contact info...going to Thailand...happy....

Spent Friday doing Happy Hour at Gachos Village with my cousin and had dinner with Trish & Jayson...then Ed & Sabrina met us up there. Food was gooood!! But you gotta come on an empty stomach. Ivy and I made friends with the bartender. He's sooo cute...and he's single and hella sweet. He hooked up us with some free drinks! After dinner, met up with Cheryl & Geoff at Sardo's and were very entertained by the people there! It was too funny. This one girl was so funny that i'd go back there just to see her perform again! BTW, it's a karaoke joint. Hella chill place and at least this time out got me smiling.

Saturday, went to work,got a manicure and pedicure, went shopping, then went drinking at Saddle Ranch..my gosh, it's changed a lot. But after 2 carafe's I was cool. Met some dood who tried to show my hands where to roam...and I wasn't falling for that crap! Went home with a massive headache and didn't go to work at Cedars this morning because of it. I always feel guilty when I don't go to work at Cedars. I ended up hanging out with Ivy and we just chilled. Went to China Town for dimsum/lunch, went shopping at the mall (I didn't buy anything after Saturday's shopping spree), then watched "Jersey Girl" --> it's actually a cute movie. I'd watch it again...and I'm now a "Desperate Housewives" fan.

Oh yeah, Senior Tea was fun. It's always fun to see the girls and meet new ones. Shace...wish you were there. I think you'd like the girls a lot. A lot of them already have plans to go to grad school. Two are going to New York...so I really really need to go visit them soon.

I'm really looking forward to my Thailand trip. I'm getting very excited...and nervous. I keep thinking I'm going to forget something (like the passport!!)...geez, that better not happen. Girls night out this week. I have to email the sisters and let them know where we're going. That's it...hope all is well