Counting down the hours...I want to go home...I don't want to be at work today. Thank goodness it's quiet. I hope the rest of the weekend proves to be the same. So I might just do something for my b-day afterall....maybe do something the weekend after...a be-lated b-day kinda deal...still thinking about it.

To put in a nutshell, Tangiers this past Saturday was hella fun. Well...it helped to have eye candy there....and it helped big time to dance with eye candy as well  But I'm a dummy, no digit swapping...it's okay though, I know I'll see him again. It turns out he's a family friend. Kinda weird for me, but....can I get a "dayam!"...this guy is my age, around 6'2" to 6'4" (hey, at my height, they're all tall to me)....happa!!

I'm running on adrenaline! Got back my lab practical exam. I surprisingly got an A (one of the 3 peeps in the class that got an A). I was expecting a B after my very poor performance on the written exam.

No plans for my birthday. I really don't know what I'll be doing. All I know is that I'm going to the SC game that weekend. Hang out with Ro and celebrate! I should really plan a party though...it's just, right now, it's just an added stress.  Aight, back to work.

Before I forget, here are links to the Gala pics (you might have to copy & paste):  www.shutterfly.com/pro/CCM/Events/Zeta
and
www.shutterfly.com/pro/CCM/Booth/Zeta2

Drinking right after work and being totally drunk @ 7pm is not a good idea (1 glass of rum & coke, 4 shots of vodka does the trick...and all in 1/2 an hour). I'm pretty sure I did some random drunk calls --> thank goodness I can't remember. Last thing I remember was sitting on the couch and thinking of two things: 1) gotta taste that Japenese Chicken Curry and 2) I should be studying instead of drinking!! Next thing I knew, I was waking up at 1am --> totally didn't eat, totally didn't study. I crashed on the couch...in la la land.

I'm currently counting down the hours so I can leave work and meet up with Angelica @ Ziba's.

I was suppose to be at the Abbey with some friends last night, but was too drunk to drive and meet up with them. Unfortunately one of my guy friends had a very very bad experience.  He woke up in the middle of the street. Didn't know what happened, where he was, how he got there....he was missing his keys and wallet. Friends drove from Pasadena to WeHo to get him --> found his keys, but someone stole his wallet. That's freakin' scary shit! I mean, the guys a drinker, so I don't think it would be that...watch out peeps....don't let your friends go home w/ strangers AND watch them!! I was ticked off cuz the people that he was hanging with just let him go by himself....I feel a bit guilty b/c if I was there, it wouldn't have happened...I usually just hang out with him and be the cockblocker that I am! j/k..about the cockblocker thing of course.

So I pass my first anatomy test --> can we say, barely! But it's a pass and I really need to be on top on my game now! But tonight, Tangiers...jimjim, gonna call u to see what u're up to.

I must say, the 10-year founding anniversary of my sorority was pretty fun. I saw Macelda's and Robert's newborn girl, Olivia. Saw Michelle and Paul, Debbie (the list goes on)....it's great to see peeps I haven't seen in a long time. It's wonderful to see the sorority grow and have such wonderful girls in it. I am especially awed by the active class. They are so awesome. So Holly Robinson-Pete (you know her from Head of the Class..or something like that) gave a video speech and Ming-Na (from ER, Joy Luck Club) also gave a video speech (but her speech was way too funny...cute too but funny). Biltmore is beautiful. All the girls were dressed so nicely and April's boyfriend is sooo sweet....he's another Zeta Sigma Guy...dood, we should seriously get those t-shirts printed. 10 years....having been part of it for 9 out of the 10 years, it's amazing to see where the sorority is now. They had some great silent auctions, but I didn't win (I tried to get 2 tickets to Disneyland's two amusement parks with a complimentary wine excursion)....I bid 40...I was outbid bummer!! The biggest bid was close to $200 for that autographed Yankees Baseball bat....it's good to have sisters with connections.

My date really liked Audrey's boyfriend (lol)..I was trying to hook my date and Suyoung's date up, but Suyoung's date was too shy. Oh well...you snooze, you lose. They had a video presentation and it was really cute to see all the girls that were involved in the sorority. One word sums it up, amazing. The place was amazing, the entertainment was wonderful, food was exceptional and worth the price, drinks were okay (a bit pricey...we should've tried for open bar), 4 scholarships were given out, I loved Poonam's dress -- it was sooo beautiful...you know what, the night was awesome. It was good to see sisters I haven't seen or talked to in years. Cheryl was totally trippin' out on where everyone is now.

So after my weird night with G (details to be put up later under protected entry), I end up drunk calling and talking nonsense. Saw I guess we're talking...I still don't know where I stand though.

Most exceptional is my little sister, Rachel M...she did a wonderful job!

So I should be studying for my test that I'm going to take right after work today. But I'm tired...and my mind doesn't want to think. Work is good. My boss at Cedars is really happy with me and I'm learning a lot at a very fast rate. I like it busy cuz the time just seems to fly by so much faster. The only thing I'm having difficulty managing is school...I seem to study just fine for medical terminology, but i haven't cracked open my book for anatomy. I just can't seem to get focused with it.

I've been feeling hella sentimental lately. I think it's because I've been lacking social contact. I miss having that feeling of "comfort"...someone to just hold me and say "everything will be alright". I miss the good times w/ K...I started thinking how much I got ripped off w/ this relationship. Why is it the case that the more you care and give, the more you seem to get screwed over? While the ones you don't really care for, want more than you want?? We use to get along so well...have so much fun together...enjoyed each other's company. We use to hang out and chill and I use to feel so "safe" and "comforted"...I was happy and content...and I wonder if I'll ever get that feeling again. (okay, I hope in my heart I do and I know things are different now and I have accepted what it has become). but like i said, i was feeling sentimental today...

Rival boy called me up this morning...close to tears. His dog died and he called me to comfort him. I like him as a friend, but he wants more...and I just don't know what to do. I know he'd be good for me, BUT that's not a good enough reason for me to try. I just don't feel the same way (it's like the roles are reversed from my situation with K)...anyway, having never been attached to a pet before, I really didn't know what to say or do, except for "i'm sorry". I know he wants company and needs a friend, but if I'm there for him, he'll want more. He'll take it as more....and I just can't do that to him.

So online today, I talked to G. Some would say I'm fickle...if I don't hear from him or if he does something (or doesn't do something)...well, i basically analyze everything that goes on with him. I really like G and I can see myself being happy as his girlfriend, but he just doesn't give enough. I feel like I'm the one always contacting him, always calling, always wanting to hang out...the boy doesn't even invite me to things...so I get fickle...I question where I stand in his life. Anyway, we had a little chat today (online of course) and he finally asked where I stood w/ K. I told him K and I were over..we're just friends and that's that. I actually IMed him and told him that I hope he knows how much I like him (as if my constant calls to see if he's free to hang out wasn't an indication)! Anyway, he was surprised about the K thing and I told him it's been this way for the past 4 months, I just never mentioned it to him cuz..well, I just never did.

so what are my plans now? I honestly don't know. I want to be done w/ school so I can start applying to other facilities in other cities and states. Yup, I'm willing to relocate. BUT as of now, the only thing I'll be doing is applying for a home loan....I guess I'll be looking for a house in the next few months...wish me luck that I get qualified for some good mulah!

Aight...oh yeah, jim jim....SC vs. Cal is on Oct. 9th. Tickets are $40. You can get them at:  http://ev8.evenue.net/cgi-bin/ncommerce3/SEGetEventList?groupCode=F-HOME&linkID=usc&shopperContext=&caller=&appCode= . My friend already bought tickets for me for my b-day (yuppers, that's my b-day!!) but let's meet up at the game so we can cheer for our team, SC TROJANS!! :-p Alright, gimme a call when u're in town...or IM me on Wednesday! Go Trojans!! heehee

Okay, I'm actually going to hit the book!! ciao.

I'm still awake, alive and doing okay. A little bit tired, hella sleepy....and behind school work, but I'm there....

So it's Labor Day weekend and I'm here at work at Northridge. Thank goodness Cedars is closed tomorrow or I'll be hella stressed out more than ever. Cedars this weekend was hella busy! I'm finally signing clients in, answering phones, verifying insurance...all I need is some passwords and a freakin' computer to do my job!

Had dinner this week with Jennifer K., Keena, Woosa, Cheryl, and Ed. We ate at Natalie Thai's and it was good to see peeps I haven't seen in a long time. It was really nice to just hang out with friends -- my time is so limited right now that whenever I have a chance to see people, I totally treasure it.

Tried to go to Toyota today (I still have to write that letter of complaint) and of course, the service department's closed on Sundays...just my luck...at least I was able to buy my roller backpack. So much better!! plus, I can fit a sh*tload of stuff in it. I still need a date for the gala on the 18th. I sitll need to dress...ugh...

My insurance company called regarding that darn accident in 2002....dood, I thought it was finally settled...guess not. I still hate that jerk that hit me. I hate him even more cuz he said I hit him (even though the freakin' side of my car was the one that was damaged)...sh*t, I didn't know I could drive sideways! He can drive his porsche into another car (well...not really, but I hate liars)...

Spent friday hanging out with Ken. I crashed (not surprisingly)...the only thing about his area...all the chinese restaurants that are close to him don't take discover! I had such a hard time getting grub (since I switched purses that day and only brought my discover card)...I ended up at Marie Calendars...dood...good stuff there! Okay, hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend so far!

Why the heck am I up?
All done with work here,
but can't get some zzzz.
Cedar Boss likes me
I think he has big plans for my future
Talked about offering more days
Guess I'm doing well
Just need to practice
Signing people into the units
A tad bit scary
Dealing w/ people who aren't in reality
I wonder what they see...
If they see the world a lot differently
Getting use to work
Anticipating school
Finally putting time aside
for friends
family
....and of course
XANGA

So I start school this week...I'm a bit anxious cuz I don't know how I'm going to deal with working 72 hours a week...attending class won't be a problem, but when will I find the time to study?

I got a bit sad on Friday...all the work got me feeling a tad bit lonely. I started feeling bad cuz I haven't had a break to see my friends, hang out with them...I get so tired easily that all I want to do is sleep!! So that's what I did Friday...I slept. I think life would be a tad bit easier if I had someone to share it with...ya know..someone who'll care about moi and hold me . But I held my pillow instead and slept soundly. I woke up early, packed for school since I wouldn't have time the rest of the weekend to do that, dressed for work and headed out...first to drop off the videos I rented, then to Cedars.

I told myself I wasn't going to sit around Saturday. So after work, I headed to SC to deposit mulah but of course all the USC ATMs were closed!! I wasn't a happy camper considering that I really needed to put that into my account. Turns out that one of my roommates moved out unexpectedly on Friday. So we're back to paying more this month. So I walked all over SC to finally go home defeated. BUT I made sure I didn't let this feeling ruin my day. Plus, thanks to J for depositing the remainder of mulah to my account -- you don't know how much stress that's relieved for me this month.

So I called up Megan and we made plans to go shopping in Brea. Bought 2 nice work pants and 1 top (dood!! I so need to dress more professionally now, sucks cuz I like wearing comfortable clothes more than dressing up, but we got some good deals at least)and headed back home. Megan ended up going to Rana's and I got ready and waited for the troops. We ended up in Downtown Fullerton. It was nice to FINALLY be doing something besides work!! It was nice to actually be on a dance floor...a bit faded and having fun. Kenny ended up hanging out with us. I kinda pissed him off when some guy asked to dance with me...I just don't get guys!!! I asked Kenny to dance but he didn't want to....I asked more questions about us, but it lead nowhere (well in my mind...he said he liked me, I asked if he liked me as a friend, and he responded with "um...*pause*..." and I said "you don't like me as a friend!!"...okay so I was being difficult, but I wanted to hear him say what he felt, but didn't...he chickened out and said "yeah I do like you as a friend"...*rolls eyes*)... I accept a dance with some random stranger and he leaves the freakin' bar. But all is well, we kissed and made up. hahaha.

Went to work this morning, went back to my parents cuz I left my sneakers at the house plus they had some good grub!! Lobster, crabs and shrimps!! Can't pass that up!! Slept and now here at Northridge.

I see Jenn K. on Tuesday. It'll be great to see her again!! It's going to be a stressful day though -- a lot of driving and I need to get some sleep sometime...so that's my weekend in a nutshell.

So it's a definite that I'll be working 72 hours for the next 3 months...and today, I failed miserably at coming into work!! I was an hour and a half late. I finally crashed at 8 and had turned on my alarm (but I guess I turned it off) and went back to sleep...oops.

I start school next week...should be very interesting.

Gala is just around the corner. A lot of exciting plans in the making. It's really gonna be nice and I can't wait to see the girls (old and new).

Work is cool...still have lots to learn, but overall...it's hella good

Oh...looks like I didn't update...well, Northridge's sister hospital is closing and that means some of our jobs here at in jeopardy due to union rules. I don't know if i'll be affected since I'm not officially union -- although my job title is. Anyway, everyone is stressing out. There's a hire freeze AND that's why I have to work 72 hours instead of cutting it down to 56 hours....sucks..but it's only temporary.

I'd start whining how I want a boyfriend, but I won't....cuz right now, I'm not doing anything to meet peeps nor am I interested in those who are interested...so it's really my fault....oh well..such is life.